Before this year I didn't really act much on what I really wanted to do. I would just imagine what my life would be like if I were a photographer. I would take photography seriously but not serious enough. It was always "what if?" and "maybe not". It was just a hope, always in the distance. I was studying something I really, really did not want to do and even though I tried to grind my way through it, there was no way I could lie to myself and think that I was actually happy in the field I was in. I was miserable. It was not what I wanted to do.
It finally got so bad that I snapped and suddenly this wasn't a dream, suddenly this was the only thing I wanted to do and it weighed so heavily in my heart that suddenly all my fears were nothing. Yes, I'll switch majors. Yes I will practice and get good at this and the maybe's started becoming definitely's. One night at two in the morning I made a website. I bought a new camera. I spent a whole summer saving up for the only thing I've really wanted to do since I was sixteen.
Looking back on the year, 2012 was pretty big for me. I put myself out there and really tried, and I'm pretty sure it's working. I've never been happier, really; I've met so many great people who have helped me out a ton, both in giving me advice and encouragement and in pushing my limits in what I can do. I've started taking pictures that I am actually proud of. I've got a whole bunch of people I love and who are so supportive sometimes I just lie in bed at night and think about what a lucky person I am. 2012 was very good to me and I'm really excited to keep moving forward and seeing where I end up a year, two years, ten years from now.
I'm just really excited about life in general, and before this year, I don't think I could have really honestly said that.
